“I’ll shut up and carry on. A scream becomes a yawn.” -Metric
Several years ago I took an un-announced vow of silence. Blog posts ceased, I stopped sharing my opinion (or anything much at all) on social media, and I’d even go as far as to say I stopped having meaningful conversations with my friends and family.
Idk Maybe I’m just in that post-college, pre mid-life crisis, anxiety-and-depression-riddled-retreat-into-the-mountains-to- save-face stage of my life. Maybe I went silent because I found the woman of my dreams. Maybe it was to make my father proud – a man who knows as well as anyone that ultimately it’s not what we say, but what we do that defines us.
And I should probably end this post right, there. Because that’s gold… But I mean, let’s face it, I have a blog. And people with blogs are people who Don’t know how to shut tf up. And I say that with the tenderest of hearts, friends and fellow bloggers.
You see, apart from being stricken by cupid’s arrow, apart from wanting to make my father happy, I stopped talking because I bought into the idea that nobody cares what I have to say, and that the greatest gift I can offer the world is to be silent so that others’ voices can be heard. And I still believe that to a large extent. Especially when, in our society, there are already so many people’s voices that need to be heard that aren’t. I’m just an average white guy. How valuable is my perspective, really?
And I should end this post right there. Because that would be golden. So for now, I will.
E.F.
Experience Film 
Experience – this existentialist crisis haunts all of us, and has haunted us even before the virus.
Exposed to literally hundreds of thousands of blogs and similarly large numbers of podcasts the soul on this earth has to ask himself whether he really is not just another example of homo sapiens who will one day age, die and likely be forgotten.
But you will not. Because you have taken the time to express your views on this medium your place on this earth has been forever secured. This is not the something as fame.
Fame is hard to come by, infamy easier, but it usually leads to a long prison sentence and that would separate you from the ability to blog
It is best to know yourself and become secure in that knowledge. Most of the time people like that better than fame.
Here is some advice from my experience with film:
“Try not! Do or do not, there is no try.” – Yoda
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Thanks for your insightful comment. The exposure to so much media, so many blogs, podcasts, etc., as you mentioned is exhausting.
Becoming secure in one’s knowledge of himself, and perspective of the world – Yes that is valuable. Maybe that is the way out of this existential conundrum.
Continue to meditate on this, I will
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